How do I fight it?

What is in me that hurts so much?'

What is it that hurt so much 

like a thousand knives stabbing my heart.

like a thousand little hands choking my neck.

Like a thousand bullets piercing my lungs.

Like a thousand canons targeting me and only me.

Like a thousand grenades blowing my head off.

Like a thousand swords stuck in my heart. 

What is it? And How do I fight it?

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  1. Anonymous5 February 2023 at 08:37

    Still alive huh!?.. Guess.. Only love can kill you.

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